The Congregant

2012-01-23T01:05:00.005+08:00

Celebrating Chinese heritage, cultural traditions and eastern Asian values.

Blessed year of the Dragon!!! May the new year mark the beginning of good change and happiness to all.

2012-01-21T01:09:00.006+08:00

Gave some old books away yesterday after cleaning the old bookshelf. Although you have pretty much outgrown children's books, there is no comparable nostalgic feeling like holding a read book that you have held in your hand when you were a child. So I did not have the heart to give away a few of my favourites. As much as I do feel sad, some must go to make way for current reads.

Goodbye and may the people who pick you up after we left, will see the value you were; and still is, to me and my family, in our home.

2012-01-20T13:22:00.004+08:00

-and there are times I do not fear nor do I care, thinking that it does not matter, only to be awaken that I was wrong all this while. I am sorry.

-and if I am sincerely sorry, I should be taking proactive steps to correct myself?

2012-01-12T23:40:00.003+08:00

Today, I sincerely pledge to take on your challenge to grasp the subject. It will not be easy but I am willing to work it out with a right frame of mind. Wish me well.

2012-01-07T00:35:00.003+08:00

One should probably learn how to detach problem A from problem B. If not, it did just only magnify PROBLEMS. Daunting is the task ahead, so shall one grab the bull by its horns and...hang on for dear life *poetry attempt failed*.

2011-12-19T21:34:00.005+08:00

Currently reading on: Vaclav Havel

An excerpt of an article from the Acton Institute by Edward Ericson Jr. which I think is rather interesting about Vaclav Havel:

The Transcendent Reality from Which All Life Draws Its Meaning

Despite his Roman Catholic rearing, Havel does not number himself among the believers. He admits to “an affinity for Christian sentiment,” and he tries “to live in the spirit of Christian morality.” Yet, when queried about a rumor that he had become a Christian, he began ambivalently–“It depends on how we understand conversion”–then said no. No, because “genuine conversion, as I understand it, would mean replacing an uncertain ‘something’ with a completely unambiguous personal God, and fully, inwardly, to accept Christ as the Son of God.… And I have not taken that step.”

Yet the rearing shows. Havel does insist–and this is what matters most for Havel as cultural critic–that there is a transcendent reality from which all of human life draws its meaning. And, despite the impersonal ring of his God-substitutes, such as “the mystery of Being” and “the absolute horizon of Being,” he routinely makes personal references to them, as when he converses with “someone” who “addresses me directly and personally.” He is always approving toward believers and disapproving toward atheists. In his cultural criticism (as distinct from his private life), Havel might as well be a Christian.

This is certainly true in his analysis of the West. Havel and his fellow dissenters took “the traditional values of Western civilization” as their guiding light. He remains wholeheartedly committed to “the ideals of democracy, human rights, the civil society, and the free market”–the values America espouses. As a lay historian of ideas, he particularly praises the “blending of classical, Christian, and Jewish elements” that has created “the most dynamic civilization of the last millennium.”

2011-12-18T00:26:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel that the gospel is such a burden. As much as I enjoy being ignorant; ignorance probably keeps me sane in some way or another, however to learn to read the bible, one cannot be ignorant since; I believe, it requires an active participation to respond to the teachings and a rather life-changing attentiveness (to constantly keep oneself in check).

Not only do I have to learn to see its progression from past to present, I have to find a way to live it out as well.

The burden of responsibility to understand scripture is even much more heavier when I think that the Bible is the only Truth out there.

Then again, as much as it is seemingly tough, I wonder whether I am doing enough to learn.

But there are many times, throughout my inconsistent attempts to devour that extremely difficult book, I find it very comforting when I discover the 'missing link' of understanding, the assurances and the promises set before mankind, for me. -and that probably will keep me coming back to that extremely difficult book.

2011-12-14T00:14:00.003+08:00

Currently watching: Arthur Christmas

Wow, what a great way to start the holidays with a great movie! Not only is the plot heartwarming and witty, it is full of fresh new ideas in bringing the whole Santa Claus gift-giving-to-children-everywhere folklore to a rather plausible feat! Extremely silly and unreasonable in an utmost wonderful way. Brilliant.

2011-09-22T23:44:00.012+08:00

The opening question that was put forward in today's discussion was: What if there is not a God?

(the following capitulation of the discussion is for my own reflection. It may have been tweaked about as I have remembered)

a)Thoughts that were tabled:
1. Panic on/and Death (?)
2. No purpose -there is no purpose to live
3. There would be no law on earth -because God himself is the law (?)
4. There would be no hope -who do you turn to when there is no one to turn to?

~Because truth will will prove that there is a God

b) -Question: but how do we perceive truth? How do we know then what is true?

~(some skimming on morals and personal experience, deductions and discussions on whether truth was subjective or objective) -not conclusive

c) Statement: Truth is self-authenticating. Truth will prove itself.
-Question: Give examples?

~the things that were mentioned in the Bible were prophesied and that they came true
(some skimming on apologetics)
~first hand experience
(on predicting the weather tomorrow)

d) -Question: Is knowing the truth important? What if you knew all along you were living a lie?

~ (discussions on the need for evangelism-that it is not about converting people to a religion, but speaking on truth)

e) -Question: Does truth affect us?

~yes, if it is universal truth
~ (discussion on someone lying to you)

f) Retrospective statement : In the beginning there was a God ( Genesis 1)
-there is nothing that is subjective. No such thing as experience etc.

g) Closing statement: We know not all -end with more questions. Can we therefore decide what truth is; if truth is assumed to be self authenticating? How should it affect us?

~ (discussions about the Bible on being a source of truth)

h) Prayer: 2 main points:
1.may God continue to provoke us to Truth
2. to think and be seekers of the Truth

2011-09-16T20:45:00.004+08:00

Currently reading: Christianity Today's article 'Abstinence is Not Rocket Science'

An excerpt from the article which I found rather thought provoking is written:

What we—both teens and single adults—need from the church is better theology, a healthy dose of realism, and a little more understanding of where we are in our lives. When you're a chaste single adult, the teachings about how you're a princess and God will bring you a knight (or, alternately, that you're a knight who has to go win yourself a princess) start fading away just as you reach the age where the mainstream culture starts to regard you as a freak.

The 40-Year-Old Virgin wasn't just a movie title, it was a punch line. When that's what we're hearing from the culture about ourselves, we need the church to support us, to remind us that we're valuable to God and to the community, and that if our "knight" or "princess" hasn't shown up, we still have the chance of a good life. That obedience isn't a formula to get us what we want, but a way of living that we follow because God loves us and we love him.

The recently deceased John Stott practiced celibacy all his life. C. S. Lewis was celibate for most of his. Was it a fate worse than death? These men didn't seem to think so. Both of them lived good lives, rich in relationships, in God's service. And as Stott advised his fellow singles, "Pray daily that God will guide you to your life partner or show you if he wants you to remain single. … If God calls you to singleness, don't fight it. Remember the key text: 'Each person has his or her own gift of God's grace' (1 Cor. 7:7)." Words like these, in all their biblical and practical wisdom, offer a great place to start pursuing a workable theology of singleness.

Sometimes obedience doesn't get us what we imagined. But then, "princess theology" notwithstanding, God didn't say that it would. Our hope and consolation are—they have to be—that he is worth it. No other hope or consolation will do.

2011-08-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

"There are moments in your life that make you and sets the course of who you're going to be. Sometimes they're little, subtle moments. Sometimes, they're big moments you never saw coming. No one asks for their life to change, but it does. It's what you do afterwards that counts. That's when you find out who you are."
-Anonymous

2011-08-24T23:38:00.005+08:00

Isaiah 61:10
I am overwhelmed with joy in the LORD my God!

Psalm 34:1-3
I will praise the LORD at all times. I will constantly speak his praises. I will only boast in the LORD; let all who are discouraged take heart, Come, let us tell of the LORD's greatness; let us exalt his name together.

Psalm 103:1
With my whole heart I will praise his holy name.

Ephesians 5:20
And you will always give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

I appreciate my family and relatives a lot for they continued to encourage me even when I was in the dark. Special thanks to Mr. Jana M. and Miss Pay Ling for making themselves approachable and for teaching with heart and soul.

2011-08-21T23:06:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow is result day. There is a genuine reason to worry and to feel frighten. There is also a reason to be hopeful. Whatever that might ensue, I pray really hard that I did learn from of all of life's mistakes. And while I anticipate the email throughout the day, I would be playing some hymns on the piano for comfort. Here is a very short list:

1. Lord I offer my life to you, by Don Moen

2. God will make a way, by Don Moen

3. Love lifted me, by James Rowe

4. Trust and obey, by John H. Sammis

5. Great is thy faithfulness , by Thomas Chilsom

6. Be still my soul, the Lord is on thy side, by Katharina von Schlegel

7. Be still, for the presence of the Lord, by David Evans

8. Thank you Lord, for the trials that come my way, by Dan Burgess

9. Abide with me, by Henry F. Lyte

10. I need thee every hour, by Annie S. Hawks

These are a few songs that mean a lot to me and they are like little prayers on their own.

I pray...I pray that this frail self will always have the strength to overcome life's obstacles, to always be thankful for the little things that make life so worthwhile, and to act in humility. Amen.

2011-08-20T20:30:00.006+08:00

Psalm 119:75
I know , O LORD, that your decisions are fair; you have disciplined me because I needed it.

Hebrews 12: 6 and 11
For the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes those he accepts as his children.
No discipline is enjoyable when it is happening -it is painful! But afterward there will be a quiet harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way.

Psalm 43:5-8
Why are you downcast , o my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
For I will praise him, my Saviour and my God.

My soul is downcast within me
therefore I will remember you
from the land of Jordan
the heights of Hermon -from Mount Mizar.

Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.

Psalm 73: 25-26
Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth. My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart, he is mine forever.

Psalm 10:17
You hear, O LORD, the desire of the afflicted; you encourage them, and listen to their cry.

Isaiah 12: 2
Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song, he has become my salvation.

2011-07-28T21:02:00.003+08:00

Dear Mr John Stott,

I have always long to actually meet you. You are a very good teacher, and one of my biggest dreams was to actually hear you speak about Christ in person! And now I find it hard to believe that that opportunity has come to past. Did you know that you inspired me to learn more about my faith? At times, when I chose to reject what I deemed as my parents' beliefs, when I felt that I myself was to intelligent to submit myself and humbly acknowledge that I am weak, when I am down and I fail to see that there is a God that cares, your writings, directed to that person of Jesus Christ, is so real and personal, that it led me back to renew a faith that I now find hard to deny.

And now you are gone...another lowly giant of the Christian faith gone...It is hard to grapple with that. Goodbye and thank you, for encouraging me and many other Christians around the world to search out and renew our faith in Jesus Christ.

Goodbye Mr. John Stott, and thank you thank you so so much. Goodbye.

2011-07-16T23:35:00.007+08:00

Currently transcribing for piano: 'Tanah Pusaka' to Ahmad Merican's composition

Sungguh gemilang negeriku
Yang kupuja oh tanah Malaysia
Dimerata dunia harum semerbak
Namamu oh Malaysia

Aman makmur kaya-raya
Selama-lama hidup maju jaya
Oh, tanah pusaka
Negaraku yang berdaulat dan merdeka

Tanah pusaka bertuah
Berbagai bangsa didalamnya
Hidup damai dan bersama
Bertekun kerja untuk Malaysia

Musuh melanggarku gempur
Sungguh rela kugugur kerana
Kau tanah pusaka
Biar putih tulang jangan putih mata

2011-07-08T22:48:00.011+08:00

There is a thought that my lecturer shared today:

"Good decisions come from experience. And experience comes from bad decisions."

Both resonated with something within me.I personally felt that I could draw a linkage between them.

Soliloquy:
I learn. And when I screw up, I have to rise above adversity and anguish. Everyone needs Strength to overcome all obstacles and mistakes in life. I need Strength too.

Oh dear Jesus, Oh merciful Jesus, Oh Jesus, son of Mary, have mercy on me. Amen.

2011-07-04T22:24:00.002+08:00

Currently playing on piano: Guide me, O Thou Great Redeemer by William Williams

And so, a new semester begins. Lots of challenges ahead, lots of uncertainty, and lots of disappointments that might ensue.

-but there are lots too to character building, lots to be hopeful for, and even more happy moments to celebrate about.

Praying for strength to overcome daily obstacles.

-keeping one's head up. Looking forward. Why such a hopeful spirit? Because:

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose - Romans 8:28

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you - 1 Peter 5:7

2011-07-03T17:51:00.005+08:00

Currently reading: Barnabas aid July-August 2011 issue

This time, the magazine provided coverage on aid to persecuted Christians in Kyrgyzstan, Rwanda, Egypt and certain parts of Central Asia.

There is also news coverage of persecutions around the world not reported in local newspapers. Also, they was an update on on-goings in the UK.

The two articles that I enjoyed reading most; I do like all the articles, are the opinions written about the Arab Revolution and the country profile of Syria; which to my surprise is rather inclined to religious tolerance.

According to the article though, the future remains uncertain for Christians in those countries. I do hope that whichever government that is in control will exercise peace and justice for all its citizens.

Let's pray that all things will work together for good to those who love God.

2011-06-29T23:02:00.007+08:00

I am currently skimming through the web and reading about Inculturation; the adaptation of Church teachings to non-Christian cultures. -stumbled upon terms like the Chinese rites and the Malabar rites and got a vague idea about the practices adopted by Roman Catholicism.

-was very surprised that there are also debates among the Roman Catholicism factions, I thought they were pretty much 'standardised'. Then again, if they were, we would not have so many 'denominations'. Ah, and what difficult tasks does the Church need to undertake to resolve them!

I find it difficult to form a personal opinion substantially; I do not have any fore training and thus may have been mistaken. After all, matters would still have not been resolved if it were not for the decree of the Pope to allow such practices? What power the Pope has!

-but in my utmost ignorance and my two cents worth of thoughts, this is how I have tried to form 'ground':

I think, the answer lies within the believer as an individual alone. The individual should not take for granted the opinion of others; even though from the Church, without he himself first seeking the truth to the 'undertones' of any decree that is pro-'anything goes'. Seeking the Truth is therefore questioning all belief, being a skeptic towards any religious approach while not denying the fundamental tenets of the Christian faith; that is if one believes he is Christian.

-like a planet that orbits round the Sun, so shall one never stray so far from the love of God when questioning belief until that he has forgotten his primary mission of reconciling the differences within the Church and becomes delirious and lost in self thought. The individual should always be drawn back to God, and for Christians, Christ. His mind must be that that is drawn sincerely towards seeking all that is true and noble, though fallen a creature he recognises he is.

Fine, I accept the decree of the Pope in favour of the acceptance of non-'Christian' cultures and traditions; Paul did do the same in Athens no? but only as a mere introduction to the Faith in a new culture. Ultimately, as time progresses, the believer that falls in the ambit of such a decree would have to formulate a solution to a faith that is directed to Christ Jesus while taking into account that the individual's personal background is unique and very much loved by God. For each believer is part of:

a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light -1 Peter 2:9 (ESV)

My opinion ends vaguely: True, that in the end it is easier said than done, what of formulating solutions. It looks rather impossible. I do hope that God will shed light on His church somehow. He will not leave us in the dark. He will never abandon us nor forsake us - Deuteronomy 31:6

2011-06-27T21:20:00.002+08:00

Currently reading: Matthew 6:25-34

John Stott once shared his thoughts on this verse:

"All worry, when you think about it, is experienced today although it relates to tomorrow or some more distant future. So, worry is a waste. It's a waste of time, a waste of thought and a waste of energy. Tomorrow has its own troubles so why anticipate them?! If we do, we double our troubles. For example, if our fear; what we are frighten of, does not materialise, we have worried once for nothing.Whereas if they do materialise, we have worried twice instead of once! So in either case, worry doubles trouble. Worry is very foolish and incompatible with common sense."

-and the prayer which was shared:

"Heavenly Father, we thank you for the teaching of our Lord Jesus Christ. We thank you for the wisdom in which He tought and the relevance of it, and we want to pray that we may take seriously what He teaches us in this passage and that above all we may seek Your kingdom, and Your righteousness and Your glory. We ask you for the glory of Your great name. Amen"

-and so, I shall try not to worry.

I am going to take a night cycle

2011-06-24T22:01:00.008+08:00

Currently skimming: The National Review College Guide -50 top liberal arts schools by Charles Sykes and Brad Miner.

Why even bother?! I have already enrolled in a professional course!

The book sat on the shelf for a long time. Untouched; it was a gift and I had little use for it. I decided to take a look . It is outdated; some 20 years ago! -but to my surprise, it is unlike any other guide that I have browsed through before.

The book talks about what they call a traditional, well grounded liberal arts education in a few remaining steadfast colleges. -that an individual should be able to differentiate and connect subjects like poetry and history, science and philosophy, theoretical and practical science.

-and I thought of my own public schooling years, did I really learn anything perennial? -that I could use to make myself a better individual?

Exams, are all that mattered most. -and they still do.

I do read non-academic books. Would that be considered a waste of time? -because it does not give me credit for my future; in regards to a career?

Have I even read enough? Have I been liberated from the perils of the material earth? Have I been enlightened and learn that of inner-peace? To know thyself is a very challenging attempt indeed!

I fear that I will die not certain of what I was made for. Where do I go from here? Why me?

In addition to that, there is the attack of secularism on the church. Why should I have faith in a doctrinal constant; maybe not so constant, such as the church?

Education should be directed to help one paint a vague understanding to these questions no? Should not it be more meaningful than just prep for employment?

O Jesus Christ, have mercy on thy weary servant, who lacketh faith, who at many a time, so desperately want to be fully accepted in a temporal world, fail to see beyond the conquered grave, would often be concern only with all that is of his time on earth. -pray that he will continue to strife to understand more of thee everyday, as he too continue to strife in day-to-day living. Amen.

This is a sporadic post indeed...

2011-06-14T22:03:00.017+08:00

Trusting as the moments fly. Trusting as the days go by. Trusting Him, whate'er befall.
Trusting Jesus that is all!

-and so another semester passes fleetingly, and my hardest yet!

-and it breaks me to think of the impending outcome. Maybe there is something to learn from all this? For every cloud has a silver lining no? All in all, I truly thank God for the support I have been receiving.

I hope to view things objectively in the coming months.

Hope? My hope is built on nothing less than Jesus blood and righteousness...

It is written: Be truly glad! There is wonderful joy ahead, even though it is necessary for you to endure many trials for a while...

What trials they were indeed!

It is sung: When all around my soul gives way, He then is all my Hope and Stay.

2011-03-31T20:40:00.006+08:00

Entry: Community service -Kids Camp at SIBKL Care Centre, Sungai Buloh New Village

A rough reflection for the day:
March 12 2011.

It’s seven in the morning, and as I got up that fateful morning, I psyched myself that I am going to have a great time. Community service can be a form of reward itself; the experience can be simple yet a memorable one as I have previously experienced before. –but knowing that some kids can be a handful, my fears and anxiety were real. Nevertheless, I was able bury worrisome thoughts and as we drove closer to the care centre, I was literally bubbling with excitement and with no less enthusiasm.

Upon reaching Sungai Buloh, one cannot help but feel the small-town-laid-back atmosphere. Sure, it’s not village picture perfect; there was bad traffic, it’s dusty and there are dried dogs’ droppings everywhere, but there is a surreal like feeling that such a simple lifestyle can still be met in busy Selangor. The centre was not a big complex but a shop lot. It was clean and had well equipped amenities; though there was not running water that day.

As the kids gathered, we got ready to warm up to one another with a simple dance. I am shy and conservative. I don’t like to relive my childhood dancing to kiddy music, but as the music played on, you know in order to connect with others, you did have to break your personal boundaries and step out of your comfort zone –and in the process, I did find myself rather entertained. It was fun!

That morning, I wanted to make people; kids happy. I gave my very best and lowered myself in nature. People definitely will warm up to you if you would just open yourself, your very true self to others. I did just that and felt very pleased that children would accept me as one of their own.

They were good kids. They did be listening to what the big kokors and chechehs have to say intently, eventhough probably they did not want to. They were receptive to the game rules. They were responsive to all the activities. They made the execution of the day’s events running relatively smooth. –and I had the greatest pleasure to actually hear a little about their personal background and witness for myself their very nature; for sometimes one may never get to know the children truly as they are like cold engines, needing time to warm up.

Of course, nothing can be so smooth sailing, As I learnt that children, given a foot will ask for a yard. Kids, when we become too friendly with them, will sort of climb over your head. They don’t mean to mock or bully; I believe, but because they did not see that friendliness to has its limits and sometimes actions can hurt someone, literally. I got stepped on purposely. –but I am aware it is all in good fun, and I did pluck some courage to stand up for myself and said “friends, do not treat each other like this” –and it stopped. We were good once more.

There was also an instance where a six year-old girl who said to me “why do you behave so childishly?” I was rather taken aback at that question as I had not expected to be confronted in that manner, but I regain composure and found something in myself and replied “why, if I wouldn’t, we would not be able to relate to one another. We would not have been friends! Being friendly is not being childish” At that moment, I beamed at myself. -because at that spur of a moment, I searched myself and found out what mattered most to me –being simple, lowly and easy-going. I did come to appreciate who I am with that thought and really treasure the small but true lasting self-worth I carry.

By noon, I was tired and after running about, yakking in three languages and laughing non-stop, I was ready to head home. It was a sad goodbye; I did probably never see them again. "Study hard and stay in school" was all I could think of as a word of encouragement and farewell. I sincerely pray that they remain well and hopefully life’s grace and everlasting happiness will always be with them. My goodness...I had a lovely time.

2011-03-18T20:29:00.004+08:00

Currently listening to: Saved by Grace Abundant Studios

Usually when I go back to my home church, I regularly catch the worship team presenting 'Your Name'. The arrangement is not at its best; it is too loud and is not personal because they like to overdo their showmanship; did I just say that?! heh... The song was definitely not on my 'like' list.

Until I heard this! gee...

2011-03-14T20:42:00.003+08:00

Currently reading: 'This Just In' CNN news blog on Japan's quake and tsunami 2011

Dear Japan,

Usually when I read history about our past relations, I would feel some resentment at the treatment that your Japanese soldiers inflicted on the Chinese community in Malaya.

Whatever my feelings about the past, I cannot but feel very sadden and sorry now while reading and listening about the on-goings regarding the disaster that befell your country.

I feel very helpless looking at the the shots taken on the aftermath. So many homes, so many lives, so much pain and so many loses. Most of all, I feel for your young children. All these does make one heavy-heartened.

I empathise with you, people of Japan. I sincerely do wish that I could be there to lend a hand. I hope and pray that situations will get better soon and your country did be on the highway to speedy recovery.

2011-03-13T23:09:00.003+08:00

Currently listening to: Classical Compilation no.1 from Grace Abundant Studios

Malaysian musician. Pretty good stuff here. My sibling likes Sugar Rush due to it's whimsy nature halfway through the piece. I always hear giggles at the end.

Test results are out. Sighs. It's ok. I will have to undo the mistakes and the misconceptions. Wish me well.

2011-03-07T22:05:00.003+08:00

Currently reading: Barnabas aid March-April 2011 issue.

The magazine is very informative. -highlighting the plight of persecuted Christians throughout the world.

News reports range from Christians facing persecutions in the Middle East and South Asia; as well as discrimination of Christians in Europe and the US, to updates on projects worldwide that help Christian communities to be self sufficient in times of adversity.

Anyone who is feeling altruistic and would like to channel their resources to a reliable organisation that is for a good cause, look no further.

2011-03-06T00:22:00.007+08:00

There is nothing as wonderful as hearing good music; and also playing it! -at night fall, when the moon rises. Despite the humid, still air and the whir of the fan blade, everything suddenly becomes inaudible, and all that matters is the music of Elgar floating freely.

-capturing the senses, stirring up emotions and painting pictures of a solitary self sitting by a calm river in the spring-like Bavarian-alps' forests.

Then again, it could be sitting at one end of a pew, looking out through the clear section of a stained-glass window to see an English garden with a beautiful tree as it's focal point.

How profound a composer he is.

2011-02-21T19:29:00.009+08:00

Today is result day. I am close but not close enough; what when wrong leh? Anyhow the mistake, I am rather thankful and in some ways -happy. Special thanks to my lecturer Miss Ang Fei Ling for making it happen for someone like myself who has not any basic with accounts or ledgers till recently.

Oh, and I would like to quip that I work hard too! A personal achievement is something to be proud of and even more to be thankful for.

Wise words from lecturer Mr Wong Kee Mun to one of my friends; a lesson from all these:
"-make it your negative reinforcement motivation for other papers... Sometimes, practical understanding is more valuable than academic results... Cheers..."

What's done is done. No regrets. It's time to pick oneself up and carry on!

Let's celebrate, rejoice, rise up, praise and glorify what the Highest has done today. So shall one abandon despair and banish laments. I will go and sound forth with full delight and happiness!

2011-02-15T17:30:00.003+08:00

Currently reading: Profiles in Power- Woodrow Wilson by John A. Thompson

It interests me how people who grew up in church relate their upbringing, personality and life experiences to the secular world around them.

2011-02-01T12:29:00.004+08:00

Currently playing on piano: Nella Fantasia to the written lyrics by Sarah Brightman.

2011-01-30T22:07:00.005+08:00

Currently reading: The Orange Girl by Jostein Gaarder.

It has been raining for almost 12 hours and the weather now is unusually cold. Chinese New Year usually shifts the weather to bright sunny; not necessarily hot though, and windy.

This book is not Gaarder's best. -but it does give insight to how lovers somewhat behave and think. Boleh tahan for light reading gua.

2011-01-18T19:08:00.002+08:00

Some people are not so friendly. Why bother about them cold-shoulders? Why not?!! Maybe they are just the silent, strong type. Probably they need time? Or is it just me? I don't jump on people; thus usually never have trouble in striking a conversation. I am definitely not the hi-bye, superficial individual. No, maybe it's just me. -but I know me better; and I know I will succeed!!!

2011-01-17T22:27:00.003+08:00

Currently reading: Barnabas aid January-February 2011 issue.

One of the magazines that I constantly read; besides accounts, costing, audit...

2011-01-15T10:13:00.007+08:00

Currently playing on piano: Here I am Lord (I, the Lord of Sea and Sky) by Dan Schutte.

One of my favourite contemporary Roman Catholic vernacular hymns is based on Isaiah 6:8 and 1 Samuel 3. It's inspired by the story of the calling of Samuel:

I, the Lord of sea and sky
I have heard my people cry
All who dwell in dark and sin
My hand will save:
I who made the stars of night
I will make their darkness bright
Who will bear my light to them?
Whom shall I send?

Chorus:
Here I am Lord
Is it I Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night
I will go Lord
If you lead me
I will hold your people in my heart

I the Lord of snow and rain,
I have borne my people's pain,
I have wept for love of them,
They turn away...
I will break their hearts of stone
Give them hearts for love alone
I will speak my word to them
Whom shall I send?
[chorus]

I, the Lord of wind and flame
I will tend the poor and lame
I will set a feast for them
My hand will save:
Finest bread I will provide
Till their hearts be satisfied
I will give my life to them
Whom shall I send?
[chorus]

2011-01-08T18:27:00.002+08:00

To my fellow brethren of the Coptic church and other churches following the Julian calender,

A very blessed Christmas I wish you. The happy occasion you usually celebrate must have been an even solemn and dark one this year.

I have read about your stories, regarding the recent attacks on your churches in the local newspapers. I do sincerely feel for you. Here in my homeland, we face hardship too. The freedom to worship and to speak out one's thoughts is relative.

However, it is nothing compared to the troubled events and the dark times that you live in. Not to forget your other brethren as well, the Iraqi Christians, whom not too long ago were massacred in a bloody event too. Peace and courage be with all of your people. I sympathised with you over the friends and family whom you have lost.

I realised how small but blessed my live is for I am still able to live in a rather peaceful; though not perfect country. I feel helpless in able to do something to ease your pain. Saying a little prayer and hoping that everything will turnout right isn't taking a stand for a cause at all.

I just want to let you know that the church at large is with you. All around the world, we are hurt and persecuted and it is becoming increasingly difficult to 'turn the other cheek.' May we move from strength to strength as we overcome obstacles. My prayers and hopes go out to you all.

Blessed Christmas once again.

2010-12-25T12:08:00.009+08:00

Currently watching: Handel's Messiah on Australia Network.

Reflection and thanksgiving. This Christmas seems to centralise on the theme of reflection on the gift of Christ! -and how thankful one should be of this gift.

I attended two separate services. The first was on Christmas eve. Traditional -lots of candlelight, beautiful decorations, nativity narration, carols and mighty organ playing!!!

The second was on Christmas morning today. Simple -a very small but good choir, simple nativity narration, heart-warming carols, and a well delivered reflective thanksgiving sermon.

I like Christmases with a lesser focus on evangelism. As there always should be a time for reaching out to others, it is equally and no less important; though easily forgotten, for the believer to reach in and reflect on the occasion.

Instead of turkey, we celebrated with tang yuan; an event which we usually keep apart but was decidedly merged this year.

*And Mary bore sweet Jesus Christ for to redeem us all* May we all share a Blessed Christmas!!!

2010-12-24T14:53:00.000+08:00

Currently listening: Carols from King's College, Cambridge

Christmas! Tradition, bible reading, people and carols! -brings tears of joy, peace and hope. Oh, so great a hope to live for and to expect!

I am so happy to be a Christian and I am unimaginably thankful for Christ's coming.

2010-12-18T15:19:00.001+08:00

Clearing out textbooks and clutter today. The rule is simple: whatever is deemed irrelevant in the next five years is brutally disposed. I love my form 6 notes and they are not leaving anytime sooner.

Suddenly, there's the scent of clean new year's air in the house.

2010-12-16T09:09:00.000+08:00

Currently watching: Narnia, Voyage of the Dawn Treader.

Holidays are in! Surprisingly, my most carefree. Debit reading list, credit textbook. It has been a rather alien year of learning, but a great deal of fun! I did wish to note that the last two weeks leading up to the external exam includes an incremental built-up of stress. Not very fun, but college ain't high school; bounded by unnecessary rules. One just does what one needs to do, not forced to partake in something one's dispassionate about. This round I am in control; Form 6 teaches one by experience how to undo errors. Hopefully I will consistently continue to be. I guess in a way I am looking forward to next semester despite the increase in learning material?

Christmas is around the corner. I sense the nil presence of a turkey this year.

2010-10-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

Currently reading: A Shooting Star, a brief intro to the life of Markus Ng

Never met him. Never knew him. Yet, somehow the book came into my possession. I must say though little do I know about his life and personality, he must have been a very down to earth person with lots of love for our country and her people, as described by many of the writers. Personally, I felt that his thoughts were rather poignant.

2010-10-11T21:06:00.005+08:00

Currently watching: Songs of Praise, BBC One

Dear BBC, you have reported AledSoP on Youtube regarding copyright infringements to this beloved program. I am disheartened.

Your program has been a real source of inspiration and a blessing!

I just want to say that I am one of your biggest followers outside the UK and I pray and hope that you did consider retracting the directive.

2010-10-10T15:43:00.000+08:00

Currently finding out about: Berlin's Museum Island

Android. I have only read a little about its operating system and its current market influence. I may never own one but still, I am excited about anticipating what's coming next.

2010-09-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

I realised there is a significant difference between the soap operas of the east and the dramas of the west. Eastern soap operas center mostly around family life and how power, sex, money and hate affects the harmony within a family where else western dramas tend to focus on how the the four affect the individual's interest and well being.

Is it fair to conclude that western culture today is rather self-centered compared to the family-oriented east? Probably. -but then again, if it were not for the suffragettes and people like William Wilberforce and the Magna Carta...Well, I digress then and bluntly conclude that all cultures must have their flaws, that all humans are complicated? Only this 'force' called God can redeem them all?

2010-09-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

Currently watching: The Chronicles of Narnia- Prince Caspian.

My fourth view, definitely not my last. Probably I am attracted to all those Christian parallels. I do not think there is a need to classify the books as Christian literature.

However way they were written, it's undeniable C.S. Lewis is an interesting and great Christian apologist who has a wide view of the world. Admirable.

2010-09-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

Whatever you think about him, one cannot deny Mr. Lee Kuan Yew is a very brilliant man.

2010-09-11T23:03:00.001+08:00

I am afraid college will make me too liberal a being. I do not pray as often as I do now and I know I should. I am determined not to sway for wrong reasons.

May my mind be open to the infinite wonders of Your knowledge and I hope I did not lose myself to the world as I explore the unfathomable depths of Your Love and Wisdom which men proudly proclaim is all but Yours.

2010-09-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

Dear pastor from Florida, you are making a grave mistake. You and your congregation's actions pose terrible consequences to your brethren around the world.

The Bible does not teach us to behave so selfishly and irrationally. There are wiser ways to voice out one's opinion and frustration.

2010-09-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

Currently watching: Bread, Love and Dreams on KBS

How do you hate someone who does not hate at all?

Despite a barrage of obstacles, the good should have unquestioning faith that they will surely triumph in the end?

Oh, the suspense and twists just keeps me sitting at the edge of my seat!

2010-08-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

Currently Watching: Britain's Greatest Machines with Chris Barrie -Trains on NGC

Going loco over locos. Though no cigar for me on being part of the development of these marvels, I am so awestruck! What marvelous feats of engineering- the Pen-y Darren, Rocket and Planet!
Must have been terrifying though to ride an untried, untested experiment...

2010-08-10T20:12:00.000+08:00

Currently playing on piano: Soul of My Saviour to the tune of Anima Christi

The Latin text of this prayer dates back to the 14th century:

Soul of my Savior sanctify my breast,
Body of Christ, be thou my saving guest,
Blood of my Saviour, bathe me in thy tide,
wash me with water flowing from thy side.

Strength and protection may thy passion be,
O blessed Jesu, hear and answer me;
deep in thy wounds, Lord, hide and shelter me,
so shall I never, never part from thee.

Guard and defend me from the foe malign,
in death's dark moments make me only thine;
call me and bid me come to thee on high
where I may praise thee with thy saints for ay.

2010-07-03T18:40:00.000+08:00

Currently reading: The Blue Lotus (Tintin's adventures) by Hergé.

"Were you really silly enough to believe I'd walk straight into the lion's jaws? You must think that I'm a very simple soul!"

"...Your courage and nobility have restored happiness to this humble house. Your memory will be engraved upon our hearts as in finest crystal..."

2010-06-21T09:25:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to: Hope In You

You came to us a man, in very nature God,

Pierced for our iniquities as You hung upon the cross,

But God exalted You to the highest place,

And gave to You the right to bear The Name above all names

2010-06-19T02:17:00.001+08:00

Every time I have a setback due to my weaknesses and inadequacies, I remind myself that I did turn around and be like Peter to strengthen my brothers.

To be a beacon of hope, not so much as to play universal friend or be Jesus, but knowing that I myself when in such a sad situation will always want someone to be there for me too.

2010-06-17T02:47:00.000+08:00

Every time I come home from some Christian group meeting, I feel I have the strength to built heaven on Earth.

May I never boast in myself, not even in the cross.

May my eyes always be set upward to the skies and my soul to be wooed towards Heaven.

2010-06-15T18:57:00.001+08:00

I think that joy comes from within. One has the ability to make oneself happy even though all is silent.

The joy within me is so deep that it is hard to express.

What's joy? Self assurance in knowing that I can find fulfillment on my own; though I do not know what fulfills.

Thus, I may be sad, but I have joy. -and because of joy, I have hope.

Hope in oneself? Sometimes. Most of the times.

2010-06-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

I look once more.

Is all my dreaming at an end?

Or do you still wait for me Dream Giver?

2010-05-19T20:09:00.000+08:00

Currently playing on piano: 'Tis the Gift to be Simple (Shaker tune) by Elder Joseph Bracket.

'Tis the gift to be simple, 'tis the gift to be free,

'Tis the gift to come down where we ought to be,

And when we find ourselves in the place just right,

'Twill be in the valley of love and delight.

When true simplicity is gain'd,

To bow and to bend we shan't be asham'd,

To turn, turn will be our delight,

Till by turning, turning we come round right.

2010-05-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

Currently Reading: Kairos Research Publication- Faith in Dark Times (December 2009 edition)

It's a funny thing that everything looks the same in a mist.

Ah, so true indeed.

2010-05-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

Currently playing on piano and singing in church: Wonderful Words of Life by Philip P. Bliss

2010-04-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

Currently playing on piano and singing: I Lift My Voice In Song Unto Thy Name by Paul Charter.

It doesn't matter no more. -doesn't matter at all.

2010-04-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

Currently singing in church : the Lord's Prayer by Malotte.

Some people have. There are also those who get to keep. Others are born to admire while others only give. Which one of these; or who, makes Christian living more faithful, noble and above all meaningful?

I need to know, for I wish to choose to work towards...Wait, can I choose?

2010-04-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

Currently playing on piano: Silhouette of a Breeze by Kunihiko Ryo.

You don't know the bridegroom, you don't know the bride either. -but there's this solemn happiness that seems to overwhelm you. -and that just wants to make you break down even though you are just imagining it. -The thought of two people taking their vows in front of a cross...that is a beautiful picture I can paint in my mind.

And this is not a post after a wedding ceremony or a thought of the other . -just something I felt strongly for during lunch hour walks.

Just these words...
Carefully, causing my eyes to see, Jesus makes beautiful....-things of my life.

2010-04-10T00:35:00.000+08:00

Currently reading: The Pigeon Wants a Puppy by Mo Williems.

hehe HEHE hehe BWAHAHAHAHA. Enough said?

2010-03-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

Currently re-reading: How to read the Bible for all it's worth by Gordon D. Fee and Douglas Stuart.

I looked in the mirror -the same pair of eyes which longed for change had not change the slightest.

Is change good? Why?

2010-03-19T10:37:00.000+08:00

She places a teapot made from earthenware on a tea tray, fills the base with dried leaves and heats the water. The water boils silently...

"clay is fashioned into vessels, but it is on their empty hollowness that their use depends...Therefore, benefit comes from what is there, usefulness from what is not there"- Lao-Tzu.

While working in a tea shop, I had not the opportunity to learn the art itself. I did learn how to appreciate different blends but not to the extend of giving advice to others regarding quality and taste. Instead, I became extremely fond of the teapots themselves. Some are beautifully adorned with intricate designs; others, in their seemingly common shape and simple manner appeal to me the most. I saw teapots through a humanistic point of view and I wonder how similar they are to humans in many ways.

Empty hollowness? We live day by day with much uncertainty, asking ourselves what purpose the world has set for us today; and for some of us, we prod our way through life asking the same question over and over until we have forgotten why did we ask such a question in the first place.

My heart was heavy when I saw many of the common teapots left on the shelve, and how cold and forgotten they were, longing for a pair of hands to call their own. I wonder if I were a simple teapot, would I break-down? Hope is that -to know I belong somewhere...just somewhere...to call usefulness... home.

2010-03-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

Playing on piano: At The Cross by Darlene Zschech and Reuben Morgan

I am not a pentecostal; but that doesn't mean that I never get inspired or touched by their ministries.

2010-03-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

Playing on piano: I need Thee every hour by Annie Hawks.

A little card on a plastic stand in my home is printed in bold letters the words of the Serenity Prayer:

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

I gave my best. It was hard. I suffered setbacks all the way. I have finished it not with the bang that I had hoped for; but I hold on to peace; peace that I had made it through; with some blessed help no doubt but I dare say on my own too.

I had a desire to walk in bright daylight. Now I walk the night. Now I desire to walk the night and see the stars. It is very dark. Where are they?

2010-02-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

Currently reading: Christianity In Malaysia by Robert Hunt, Lee Kam Hing and John Roxborogh.

Found this book at a book crossing.Highly recommended for dNAers. It's has some history on the evangelical free churches too *something I strongly believe many people in my church do not even bother to find out*. However, I did prefer the writer for the EFC column to be a little more specific. Eg: about effects by the charismatic movement.

2010-01-16T20:05:00.000+08:00

Currently watching: Nazi Death Squad series on NGC.

I wonder whether I have always been truly human at all times.I wonder.. whether I had ever done unforgivable injustice to anyone.

2010-01-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

I realise i blog petite nonsense. I need to recollect myself, commit wavering thoughts to the flames. Ding dong- maxi mega blur. I am all confused.

2009-12-30T00:13:00.000+08:00

Currently reading: The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

Amusing myself at Borders for hours on end. Pretty good read.

2009-08-18T17:23:00.001+08:00

Currently listening: Far by Regina Spektor

Oh, 26-ish days to the big day. Exams! My shortest post ever.

2009-07-16T16:13:00.000+08:00

Currently playing on piano: God the Omnipotent! King Who Ordainest

Also, currently reading about Russian Orthodoxy. I am a Christian, but what kind of Jesus do I believe in? The early fathers argued about the creeds and the statements of the faith with such zeal because every word and sentence in the text bears meaning that were so important to them. How about today's Christians? What about me?

And now I am confused. Should same sex marriages be blessed by the church and the church itself ordains homosexual clergy? As I read on, I realised the Church is really struggling with this issue. I am a heterosexual. I believe in the statement that to love the sinner but to hate the sin is the best lay belief that I should hold. I do not know. Confounded.

2009-07-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

Currently watching- Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

My first action-packed sci-fi movie that doesn't have America or New York being under attacked or blown up again. Kudos on the producer's choice on Shanghai and Egypt as an alternative set. Getting a reknown university to be blown up was also a really cool idea.

Oh, National Geographic's June 2009 edition had an article on Arab Christians as the forgotten link that could play a big role in bridging American-'Christian' West and Middle East-Islam. Very interesting; especially the shock on finding out the practices of Muslims that they believe in all saints of the Abrahamic faith including the Virgin Mary. My favourite photo shot was the picture of the Arab-Christian scout's band.

2009-06-07T21:07:00.000+08:00

Currently watching: Night at the Museum -Battle of the Smithsonian.

Well, 6/6 was an eventful day; a day to remember I guess. -was at Metropolitan college in the morning for....(sighs). To my right was a Japanese girl- international student I guess; I sat a the front left corner and another was from a local college wit plans to pursue ict hopefully in the States. A bunch of them; well actually most of them were international guys and gals. Many were overseas Japanese, Koreans and whites from international school of kl and malays- scholars at uniten (hmm) and I am assuming the rest are 'local' chinese. An eye opener really- the entire 6 hours. Totally freaked out in the first section. All I can say is, it's now in the hands of God.

And I watched this movie that evening with my family and relatives. Really, I was pretty impressed with the production crew's attention to detail. It was really funny- oscar and the einsteins. Especially the artworks, the details and animation that made them come to life.- like wow.

2009-06-02T23:08:00.001+08:00

Currently playing hymnal: O God, our help in ages past

Why is it that Malaysian students cannot pursue the subjects that they are most interested in? I feel so upset sometimes when I think that I do not have a choice in my future career. Students in Malaysia have no fair opportunity to read ethics or religion or social sciences or philosophy, subjects which I feel so strongly for -and it's tough having to juggle with your studies and at the same time pursue something out of the norm that you are interested in doing. Nobody is going to encourage you because they think only people who cannot study anything else in Malaysia study 'nonsense' like this. I believe strongly that this is the trend of thought today because even churches only seek out the leadership of those who are successful in the market place. How can you compare a pastor whose intent is only to increase church numbers- number of worshipers, number of wealth in the church, numbers numbers numbers..... to a pastor who is biblicaly and doctrinally sound, provides REAL pastoral care to his flock? The pastor of the mega church should better be called the CEO of the church. Pastors like Joel Osteen and his Prosperity Gospel does not know anything about suffering or taking the 'long and narrow road'. Did the bible say that only rich people are fit for church life? Peter, James and John LEFT EVERYTHING to follow Jesus! (hmm.....back to my central thoughts) I know never neglect my studies. I love school and the subjects taught, chemistry, physics all but the opportunity to really pursue something academic is just not available and it frustrates me. Boy if I had money.....whoops! a Joel Osteen moment there....(sighs) Only God knows. (singing) O God, our help in ages past....

2009-05-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

Currently reading: Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder.

Ah! No time! This is a short post to keep my reading list updated. Exams are due in about a week...

2009-04-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

Currently Playing on piano: Hymnals- The Day of Resurrection (Hymns of Universal Praise) and
Near to The Heart of God ( Baptist Hymnal)

Easter had just past yesterday. The influence of Jesus Christ continues to impact the world even through the 21st century. Just one man, both human and divine is living today in the world and in us, just as he was 2000 years ago. At this point of time, all Christians of different denominations take a step back from all the theological arguments and embrace the most essential core belief, that Jesus Christ had risen from the dead and had came for mankind's salvation. No other religion can boast of such a man, leader and god who laid down his life freely for others. While other religions talk about to do-doing for their own salvation, for believers in Christ it is done, for by grace and grace alone are we saved, not by our own works. I was even more convinced of all this theological talk about Christ after reading a little from writings of philosophers like Immanuel Kant and Soren Kierkegaard. May God's presence be felt greater among his creations today than it was 2000 years ago.

2009-03-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

Currently playing: O for A Thousand Tongues To Sing by Charles Wesley (Wesleyan Methodist Hymnal)

I think Malaysian mission schools should have hymnal singing competitions like Hong Kong.

Oh, well. My big questions today are 'when should we be truthful?' and 'how can we be sure our judgment is right and impartial?' I observe, and I make my own deductions. Could I be wrong? yes. Were my own feelings betraying me? Maybe- I am sensitive. A friend of mine got left out from his age-groupie. He told me what's bothering him. Dilemma 1: If I approach a person from the groupie and tell him how I feel ( I did feel the same way about the situation), I put my friendship with the groupies in jeopardy. Dilemma 2: If I don't say anything, I felt I did not speak up for this friend of mine. So, I went with dilemma 1, and voila, I made my predicted recipe for disaster a reality. Felt sorry for myself? Regretted it? Yes, I do feel remorseful over the situation. Well, friendships come and go. Afterall, I have always watched crowds and circles from afar ;though I do have non-superficial friendships, what's a loss of a friendship or two hmm? A lot. I wonder what Jesus would do if he was in that situation? hmm- I don't know.

2009-03-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

currently reading: What Does The Book Of Mormon Teach by Gordon H. Fraser

Today, Form sixes from Taman SEA, La Salle, SS 17, Bukit Bintang and Assunta gathered in my school today for the inter-form 6 gathering. There's a great bunch of people whom I have never met. I felt that I had not only the opportunity to make new friends but also to rekindle old friendships and strengthen current ones. It's great. However, something de ja vu that happened today. A La Sallian student told me that I looked like a 16 year old, exactly how a teacher had once exclaimed to me. It's not an insult, I am very sure of that but when I stare at my own reflection, I tell myself that I look older for my age. Hmm... somethings wrong. When I look at the sea of new faces, I had flashbacks of memories at the Christian Fellowship, conducted by the' e-people'. Those were the good times, and I regret that I never truly appreciated them until they have all gone. (sighs) Well, the strongest motivation I have now could be coined in the following sentence. Onward Christian soldier for God and STPM.

I feel that PJEFC is not my home anymore. I believe that a church partakes in meaningful worship when the congregation is able to relate to the morning's songs of praise. However, I realised that many were 'lost' during worship. I am here to give my thoughts on the Resonance band- a group of youths who huddle together to form a singing group who occasionaly take centre stage on Sundays. To me, it felt more like a rock concert rather than a service. I think churches like EFC are having an identity crisis, therefore they are pressured to conform to this I-must-have-a-warm- and- heightened -sensation feeling during service.

EFC's are afraid of silence. I wonder sometimes why the pianist can't stop playing during prayer? Should not the pianist pray together with the congregation? And the pastor enjoys shouting. When the pastor prays he gets louder and the pianist crescendos and there's this pseudo Holy Spirit-is-in-our-presence feeling that is expected to be accompanied by the prayer, followed by the climax of tongue-rolling which never is able to be achieved in my church. Ha ha. Thank God or otherwise I would be terrified with people fainting all around me. I was told that it was not about the touch of the Spirit (falling to the ground with sudden fits) that counts in the Christian life on Sunday mornings or in worship but the Christian life all through the week- our conduct from Monday to Saturday in preparation to meet God with fellow believers on Sunday. Why do people only get slain during worship and not on the streets, while on a date or shopping. The Christian life is a daily walk with God ( which I have to admit I too fall short of).

Sermons are not insurance talks. Don't sell Christianity. I do not believe in an unprepared sermon and neither do I believe in the Kansas City church pastor who visited PJEFC once who tells a story about a rooster and expects the congregation to crow like one- three times! Dear Kansas City pastor (your name's not worth remembering), don't think Asians are stupid. We have better theologians and church leaders who are excellent teachers and are definitely more humble in character than you Western preachers who do not know how to prepare a sermon. Well, maybe some have the gift of impromptu sermons but if you are going to talk rubbish and beat around the bush on the Word of God with no facts at all, stay away from the local pulpits.

Onward Christian soldier for God and STPM.

2009-02-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

As I sit and ponder over my frustrations and how I've come to be this very day, I remember the words of a relative; 'No choice is the best choice.' Or so he thinks. (pause) What is the will of God?

Christians like to use these ' God's wills' so easily that I wonder to what extent those words remain true? I have heard people who have gone on to med. school. 'They' were admitted differently... the unconventional way of admission was not all opened to the public. And the people around them; those who share their joys exclaimed "They are intelligent. It was God's will that they could-."I do not deny they were intelligent and had a shot at opportunity. But God's will? I believe that they have set out years ago, planning a bright future. But is not it all about their own works- how they writhe and wreath about their way and less of this God's will?

Take another instance for example, the Catholic priest sex scandals in America. After these tragic news should we exclaim, "Yes these men were chosen by God; to be a holy priesthood- a salt and light to the world; for it was God's will for them to be righteous men who will lead mankind closer to God"? No.

Okay, let's give them the benefit of a doubt. So they were men, they are fallen creatures. Thus, they may have been chosen by God but they are susceptible to fall due to unwise choices, devil's temptations... But if it were God's will for them to rise up as leaders, would it be fair to say that it was God's will for them to fall as well?

I wonder about this God's will because sometimes I get so welled up in my emotions on certain things- choices that I make ( that's if I had a choice or maybe it was God's will for me to have no choice and therefore- undertake this long and narrow....) or actions that I conduct that I don't seem to see God work in my life.

So you may think I am a sour grape- a sulking prune or whatever ( I had few choices for words. Maybe it was God's will.....) -always looking up at the people above you, comparing your miserable life when you have forgotten to give thanks for- and have forgotten about the poor and disabled-. No. I seek to justify why I am stuck in this sticky situation. Was it because I am less intelligent, not rich enough, not fortunate enough or simply just complaining, arguing, procrastinating, having not evolved fast enough as nature intended? Blah! It seemed so easy for others. They go about their lives with only sufficient input and come out with like 100% output.

I have no straight answers. As I write this, I feel my heart had skipped a beat and I have this sudden shiver of fear that whatever future holds for me- I would not grow in it; for it was God's will that some of us (me myself as well) are condemned to a life of hardship- would I seek to abandon God and believe that I decide what's best for my own?

I believe that we can do nothing without God and that we cannot deny His existence but I do not believe in the term 'God's will' and thus This Is the Future For You. I believe in doing good (or at least trying to do good) only and only for the common good at this very moment. And I am not doubting my own religion (maybe a little)- only seeking that each belief of Christ means so much to me that if Christianity is The religion, it will be self explanatory. I pray for The hands- to move- in my life-somewhere-somehow.

2009-01-21T18:14:00.000+08:00

The Obama inauguration as the 44th President of the USA: inspiring!

The quote which almost made me cry:
"-the God given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness."

And I remain in the faculty of wonder; when will his speech resound on our local seashores with resonance from Martin Luther King Jr.'s 'I Have A Dream'?
May God bless America as the leader of nations and may Malaysia too see better days.

2009-01-17T17:54:00.000+08:00

I have a touchy-taboo question. Who makes the decisions for an independent congregational church? it's less blunt to 'who rules the church?' but i guess the subtle undertone of each is about the same. I was taught by books that the Eastern Europe church refer the Emperor/Patriarch as their head and the Pope as the leader for Western Europe. Today, there are other leaders who emerged from the two later such as the Head of the Anglican Church- Bishop, the Head of the Malaysian Methodist church- Bishop. The Presbyterians have a-Moderator as mediator among presbyteries. What about the independent church? I come from an independent church and I have a few queries.

1.Who decides who speaks what text/sermon on Sundays?
2. Who has the right to control the pulpit? To select/block who speaks on Sundays? Their is a need for teachers (not speakers/ salesman talk) who are intelligible, humble, and is able to relate to people across the social strata?
3. Are there any boards to oversee the whole church? the pastor at one end managing the flock and the pulpit and a committee that is at another end overseeing administration? Where are and who are the 'Check and Balance'?
4. Congregational churches- the congregation has the right to make decisions and be informed of them. a) Is a single annual general meeting sufficient for decision making? Does the congregation know their church rights and not seek to put them into practice? If NO, who makes the decisions?
5. Is the measure of the success of a church merely numbers- no. of attendees/ amount of offerings per week?
6. Mega churches cannot survive without reinventing themselves through the times? Is it okay to adopt modern services but to reject the old ways ( liturgies/responsive readings/ hymnals) which lasted for centuries in less than 50+ years of Malaysian independence?
7. Is the Western church the ideal church of today? Cultural redemption not by means that all cultures are redeemable in Christ but the ultimate culture is the Right culture?

think about it.

2009-01-04T18:05:00.000+08:00

Currently reading: Spiritual Leadership by J. Oswald Sanders

Read the book review here.My favourite text in Sander's (revised) writing is about Paul.

Sanders has described what Paul would be at present-day parallel- an amazing man who could 'speak Chinese in Beijing, quoting Confucius and Mencius; write cogent theology*, and teach it at Oxford; and defend his cause using flawless Russian before the Soviet Academy of Sciences. By whatever comparison, Paul was certainly one of the most versatile leaders the Church has ever known.'

It made me redefine what Education is all about; our purpose for this student daily grind. They can become useful resources to relate Christian understanding with the secular world. How wonderful it is to relate the knowledge around us with God; seeing God in every aspect of life and nature.

* Theology is derived from the Greek word Theos which is the word for god-Zeus but over the ages has been Christianise in reference to the Christian Triune God. Therefore, theology is the study of God!

2008-12-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

Currently watching: Bolt, directed by: Byron Howard and Chris Williams

Actually, I caught this on the 7th of12'08 with friends at bible school. Awesome show. Lots of laughs. I especially enjoyed Rhino (I think everybody does) though the little hamster stole the spotlight off Bolt himself. Nevertheless, it was a story where good values were taught on screen (sorry, I had to include the morale aspect of it). I had to say certain key points which I found were the importance of appreciating the people (or pets) around us for most of the time we tend to turn a deaf ear to the people whom we presumably care for a lot. There was also a touch of reality dose in this movie. What I am trying to say is that sometimes we try very hard to believe we are 'special' in any human aspect- be it brains, brauns, knowing the good book inside out (that's so Jewish), social networks etc, but instead we find ourselves not so different from everyone else (or possibly in a worst state); not that we aren't good at anything (all of us have talents- be it hidden or not or whether it's given credit for...or not- I am being very chang qi here) . By the way, I was thinking about Mittens when I wrote this. But who knows, there may be a series of good turns for us down the road of life... Enough said, I think I am turning from writing thoughts to just blabbering. However, Bolt is a grat movie to watch as I beleive Christian values were potrayed throughout the movie, and so I-

Rate: 4.5 stars. Kudos.

2008-11-27T19:44:00.000+08:00

Currently watching: Madagascar 2-Escape to Africa.

'Moto- moto' means 'hot-hot'. That's all I was able to scratch out from the 2 hours staring glassy-eyed at the silver screen. The whole movie was fast paced, slightly witty and amusing, and above all, rather eccentric. Crazy. "Penguins can't fly! penguins can't fly!". Sha Conscience. sha.Couldn't have said it better myself... to myself. Not. Reality check-I am a closet blogger. Lonely...but nevertheless personal. (grins-sighs) I

Rate: 3 stars

2008-11-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

Currently watching: Fiddler on the Roof, directed by: Norman Jewison.

I have a whole list of to-do things that need to be done by the end of this week. As I quote my Chemistry teacher Madam Tan Tiu Hang; 'Everyday is a working day and your holidays only start in December-2-0-0-9'. There's a long 'summer reading' list which I am yet to complete before the fireworks go ka-pow at the end of the year.
And there's bible school (this doubles the workload) on the 5th to the 14th of December. It's called the d'Nous Academy; held by Scripture Union(Peninsular Malaysia) and by the Fellowship Of Evangelical Students and; I can't wait....No, actually I could because everything I want (and dearly need) to do seems to be cramped into a 'tin-can-of-a-month', not to mention revising school work and attend extra classes (on a holiday....sighs)and yikes....it seems I will yanter all day. Back to bible school this year the curricular will be about:

1.the Bible:
-old Testament (Wisdom Books and Psalms)
-New Testament (John, 1John-Revelation)
-Church History (an overview)

2. Christian Basics:
-The Church Today
-Mission Today

3.Spiritual Disciplines:
-Spiritual warfare
-Intercessory prayer
-Spiritual Leadership ( a book by Oswald Sanders: consulting director of Overseas Missionary Fellowship)

4. Understanding the World
-Understanding Modernity and PostModernity
-Understanding Hinduism and New Age

the approach: classroom teaching, community work, group discussions, assignments, mentoring

About the Academy: d'Nous Academy is a school that missions to forge a new generation of Young Thinkers through training and discipline of the Heart, Mind, Spirit. The objectives are to instill the passion and compassion of Christ in engaging their world (HeaRt), to nurture ongoing blibical and critical thinking (MiND), and to inculcate deeper spirituality through the exercise of spiritual disciplines (SpiRit). * Unlike Jeremiah School by the Methodists and the Residential Bible School by the Brethren which completes their own curricular ( which I am guessing that each school syllabus differs slightly from the other) in about a month, d'Nous is split into a duration of 3 years, spanding about 10 days each year.Most importantly, it cuts through the various christian denominations.
The last time I attended it (and I am yet to write about my extraordinary and mind-boggling experience last year), I met up with people my age from Presbyteries, Methodists churches, Evangelical-Free congregations and also the Assemblies of God. Everyone came from various parts of Peninsular Malaysia- from the north ( Alor Setar) to the south (Johor Bahru and Singapore). Classes are small; last year there were only 26 students and this year, only 22. And....Whoops! look at the time.... 40 winks! 40 winks! I will talk about Part 2 some other time.

Foostool Players were great.

2008-11-02T12:22:00.000+08:00

Currently watching: Crazy Little Thing Called Love, performed by Footstool Players, Nov1 @ PJEFC.

Besides the reflex-clapping throughout the play (you are not suppose to make a sound between scenes but people just can't hold back due to the tremendously well-performed acts) and the person sitting in front of me who fidgets continuously; forcing me to bob my head from left to right at peculiar angles, it was really a superb performance. Great stuff they have there I say. Lots of contemporary Christian values in the play, but the universal values cut across various major faiths too.I especially remembered vividly the scene where the husband and wife quarrel in Word Picture. And.....the whole play summed up rather nicely with the quotation based on First Corinthians Thirteen. The last time I caught them live was the performance of Thomas: Confessions of a Doubter. previously, they used to target a specific group of people whom I equate as believers if Christ since they touch on church issues and et cetera, but obviously this play was much more appealing to the general public due to the great turn out. Footstool Players will be performing at KLPac so go and watch them, it's not too late to catch them- live.

Finals, once more

2008-10-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

"Currently reading: Introduction to Philosophy- A Christian perspective by Norman L. Geisler and Paul D. Feinberg.

It's round two of examinations again this time of the year. To put my self in a psycho- focus state, I keep reciting Confucius's teaching every now and then when I bury myself in books; " Isn't it a pleasure to study and practice what you have learnt?". I am giving it my very best.

As Pslam 121( a song of ascents) is written:
I lift up my eyes to the hills-
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth

Missing Malaysian Hiker

2008-09-01T21:05:00.004+08:00

Though I do not know him personally:

News came in ... 'inform you of the following news. Yi Jien the eldest son of Rev Hwa Chien (deceased) and Kim Guat has been reported missing on a hike in the Glacier National Park in Montana, USA. Kim Guat worships at TUMC and she is now on her way to the US to join the daughter in law who is already there awaiting further news and development on the rescue efforts taking place.

Please keep them in your prayers as we do not know what has really happened, we want to commit Yi Jien to God asking Him to preserve his life somehow. Humanly speaking it is not a good sign, but we want you to continue to uphold them in your prayers...'

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From FoxNews:

WEST GLACIER, Mont. — Searchers on Friday found no sign of a 27-year-old Kentucky man who was four days overdue from a lengthy backcountry hike in Glacier National Park.

Park officials say Yi-Jien Hwa was last seen at the St. Mary Visitor Center on Aug. 11, the first day of a hike that he planned to end Monday at Kintla Lake. His car was found in the Logan Pass Visitor Center parking lot. He was believed to be hiking alone.
Park spokeswoman Norma Sosa said improved weather Friday allowed one helicopter to join the search.

The incident commander said the flight "gave them a better grasp of the areas" Hwa intended to hike, Sosa said.

Searchers check back with park officials every two hours and none had reported finding any sign of Hwa by mid-afternoon Friday, Sosa said.

Hwa's family notified park officials Tuesday night that they had not heard from him since the first day of the hike, and he had not contacted them as agreed at the day he expected to end his hike.

Tina Puge, a spokeswoman at Asbury Theological Seminary in Wilmore, Ky., said Hwa is a master's student as Asbury and lives in Lexington, Ky. She said Hwa's wife was traveling to Montana.

Sosa said Hwa's permit said he planned to cover 96 miles on his hike, with an increase of 15,000 feet in elevation and a similar descent over the course of the hike.
"It was quite an arduous trip," Sosa said.

Hwa's backcountry permit, like many given out by the park, advised him to watch for bears and mountain lions and warned him that hypothermia and giardia were possible concerns. It also said that a solo hike was not recommended.

Hwa is 6 feet, 1 inch tall and weighs about 170 pounds. He is believed to be carrying a blue Kelty backpack and trekking poles, along with other equipment, and might be wearing dark-colored clothing.

Park officials ask anyone with information to call Glacier National Park at 406-888-7801.

*This entry is taken from theologian Anthony Loke 's August 25th entry.

Again, I must admit that I do not know Yi Jien personally. But I heard about him from my aunt and relatives. They know Yi Jien and his family pretty well. His father is a very righteous man who passed on after a terrible hit-and-run accident. I guess the family and relatives especially the mother (Mrs. Kim Guat) and wife (Mrs. Siu Yin) must be going through a lot. I would just like to share some encouragement that hopefully God will show His Merciful nature to the family. I cannot understand why he had to put the family through so much? Even when the father, the late Mr. Hwa Chein is a religious and humble servant of Christ. The search for Yi Jien will be called off on the 2nd of September. I am praying very hard that he would be found. The chances seem so slim but we must believe that everything is possible with God even though it may not seem that way. To the wife, mother and family,I liked to say that you are not alone as there are many Malaysian Christians who are praying for Yi Jien as well. To end my entry, I would like to emphasize the 2nd and third stanzas of the hymn:

What A Friend We Have In Jesus

Have we trials and temptations
Is there trouble anywhere
We should never be discouraged
Take it to the Lord in prayer
Can we find a friend so faithful
who will all our sorrows share
Jesus knows our every weakness
take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden
Cumbered with a load of care
Jesus is our only refuge
Take it to the lord in prayer
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee
Take it to the Lord in prayer
In his arms He'll take and sheild thee
Thou will find a solace there.

May God be merciful to Yi Jien

Beijing Olympic Opening Ceremony issue

2008-08-17T12:54:00.000+08:00

I felt so connected back with the motherland at the Beijing Olympics opening ceremony. It's good to know I still have affiliations back there. My father's parents are from China and I have cousins who pursued their studies at Peking University. Why then are we (my grandparents) in Malaysia now? I guess the reason we came to Malaya was probably to escape poverty rather than to flee from the Cultural Revolution. Back to the main point, so when Lin Miaoke took centre stage to sing Ode to the Motherland, it was a somber and humbling moment that was filled with a sense of pride for ethnic Chinese men all around the world as we pay homage to out ancestral land (or so I think of every ethnic Chinese). And then, the news of the pretty girl in the beautiful red dress was in fact actually lip-syncing to the voice of Yang Peiyi. Little Yang was deemed not to pretty compared to Lin. I beg to differ after taking a look at the photos posted by her tutor. She's actually quite cute. However, I believe the damage has been done to the duo. As the world fires arrows of intense criticism towards the Beijing Olympic committee, the girls are not spared as well from the bombardment of foreign nations. The girls should not be subjected to such scrutiny, after all, they had to submit themselves to the politburo's decision.

Here's what CNN had to say:
BEIJING - A little girl and her song captivated millions of viewers during the opening ceremony of the Beijing Olympics. But what they saw was not what they heard.
Games organizers confirm that Lin Miaoke, who performed “Ode to the Motherland” as China’s flag was paraded Friday into Beijing’s National Stadium, was not singing at all.
Lin was lip-syncing to the sound of another girl, 7-year-old Yang Peiyi, who was heard but not seen, apparently because she was deemed not cute enough.
“The reason was for the national interest,” said Chen Qigang, the ceremony’s musical director, in a state radio interview. “The child on camera should be flawless in image, internal feeling and expression. … Lin Miaoke is excellent in those aspects.”
The decision was made at the highest levels, Chen said.
“We had to do it,” he said.

It's not a propaganda or a gimmick ( I love China very much, thank you) rather I believe it is more of a result that stems from society's prejudice preferences. Spare the girls, for we are inflicting wounds that may leave permanent scars on their childhood. As for the critical West, isn't it true that you yourself tries to project such flawless images of actors, actresses, and popstars as well? Do we really practice what we have preached? At least China did own up to Her actions. Don't treat these issues as if they were practical jokes, like some insensitive people on Youtube. However, I strongly believe like everyone else, that China should give little Yang Peiyi an opportunity to sing in the closing ceremony. Don't deprive her of such a glorious moment. To me, she still is the rising starlet of China.

May the Beijing Olympics be one of the most successful games in Olympic history!

Pixie smile

Song bird.

* The news cutout was taken from Asian Week- the voice of asian America.

Shortlisted for the HELP University College Psychology Essay 2008!!!

2008-07-31T19:43:00.000+08:00

Currently reading:

'Is God Real?'
Understanding The Modern World Through Christian Eyes, A Kairos Publication
April 2008 Edition

Praise God! My psychology essay was short-listed for Round 2 of the Help University College Psychology Challenge 2008. There are supposed to be 25 finalists who will be participating in a presentation and a quiz challenge in the Psychology Challenge'08 on the 2nd of August. the essay was entitled "How can psychology contribute to the health and development of Malaysian Youth today?" I was ecstatic, I tell you! But I had to decline...... (yups, that's right) for since the Bible Knowledge Quiz'08 is held on Saturday as well, and I have promised to volunteer myself in the planning committee of the event. My heart and soul is for the success of such Christian events in the ever persecuted Malaysian- Christian scenario and I wouldn't miss it for the world to be part of it. Secondly, my idea of a true tertiary education is one that helps me grow both in the arts and sciences. My curiosity towards the study of cosmic order is partially fueled by my extremely dedicated teachers at Catholic High School (cheering: We are CHS-ians, mighty CHS-ians.....), but I also did love to sit on a Steinway ( I wished!!), read and write poetry by the river bank, sip coffee and coffee-shop talk on Kant and Augustine in a world war II torn nation (yum-ness) , and lying in a hammock with works form Virginnia Woolf and C.S. Lewis. So psychology ain't for me but then again.... who knows! I will publish my essay tomorrow, once I am up and done with my grade 8 exam. Until then, God be praised forever and ever and ever........ for His kindness and mercy. Great is Thy Faithfulness!!!

The Form 6 club hysteria....... begins now

2008-07-06T18:25:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow will be Science and Maths week, and the activities (walau!) is much more hectic and rigorous than the beloved Christian Fellowship at Taman S.E.A. After getting involved in the marketing and logistics department, I kind of wonder whether there is any certain order to get things done on time if I were ever involved in such a field in the near future. Almost everything is impromptu and demanding. Things were turning out pretty well. Until, to my dismay, I found out the running club committee has gotten tangled in a clash for power. You see, the running club committee is made up of representatives from two classes, about 60% is dominated by the Pure Science and 40% the Physics students. The President is from the Sciences and the Vice-P from the Physics. The Physics students (esp. the Vice-P) long to lead, but the Vice-P says his opinions are continuously rejected by the President. However on the Pres's side of the story, he thinks the Vice is lazy and isn't playing his part well enough (or so that's what my seniors are telling me). There's also the story of a student from the Sciences that dictates the whole society. Making sure he's in charge of all activities continuously. He is highly despised. Now I know why my interview question was: "If the club leaders were having personal issues with one another. What would you do about it?". The appointment of a mediator wasn't a very good answer for it was too obvious and simple. But then again, why's there a need to have a complicated answer? What a simple question needs is a simple answer. It's the best solution to solve this over-dramatised bickering. Unless they want it to stay that way.....hmmm, you know what I mean. So... there's a divide, with the club up and running separately, you would have predicted the hassle and troubles that's about to arise due to insufficient communication and planning. We shall see what will happen tomorrow. I couldn't be bothered. Physics test is due soon and it's way to much to neglect it for some 'Federal Republic-German Democratic' divide issue. So I will post some pictures after the event. Jun fai says the blog is too 'wordy....', I will do something about that when i have more time. And yes, I am enjoying myself in Catholic High School, despite the bulky syllabus and time-consuming system, it's a great place to be- highly conducive, almost college-like.

Not forgetting everyone I know currently at Nepal, China, Scotland and Turkey... Enjoy yourselves and buy me presents... You will remain anonymous until i get my gifts. Muahaha!

New (Local) JPA scholarships for SPM 2007 candidates. I wonder...

2008-06-07T17:26:00.000+08:00

Details in a nutshell:

1.How do you apply for it?
Through the JPA website of course! Go to: esila.jpa.gov.my or jpa.gov.my

2.When is the closing date?
14th of June 2008. You did better hurry!

3. Who should apply?
Students who got 9As in their SPM ('07) examinations to do STPM at fully-aided government schools (SMK...)

However (there is always some sort of loophole), this raises some interesting questions though.

1.What would the scholarships cover for the STPM course? Hmm.... Muet fees abolished?

2. What about those students who are studying in partially-aided schools (SMJK)? Do they still qualify? Someone please clarify......

3. Does that mean that once the applicant is successful of this scholarship, he/she doesn't need to worry about scholarships to study in local universities/ selected universities abroad with local campuses/ ivy leagues because the STPM scholarships also automatically secure the student's financial needs all the way through his/her tertiary education? Or do they still have to go through 'another' scholarship?

Hmm....hmm.... questions with no answers.

Emmanuel... God is with us!!- and on the road too...

2008-05-12T19:09:00.000+08:00

Yup....It was a bumpy ride; with remarks like "you tiada confidence-la" and also: the extremely stiff gear and terrible break system but still I passed the driving test. Praise God!!! The even greater news is... NO KOPI-O money!!!!! Divine intervention at work here...Praise God again!!! Truly, the whole thing was an eye opener for me. There were countless times that I question God when certain matters- Big matters in life that went wonky and with plenty of disappointment just because things didn't come MY way. It's just good to know that He was there even at the least significant event of your life- a driving test; though you could retake it endlessly at a cost. Have I ever have no doubts about His constant presence? Obviously not.... It happens too often in fact. It's not like I continuously see 'His hands moving every time I pray'. But it's good to know that when you are like -" I can't go on any longer. It's the end of the line", you just 'felt' his presence that spurs you on; and you will say "maybe, just maybe I could go a little further. There's always a next time." It may seem that He wasn't always there, but bow blessed it is to see Him in times of need. Some may argue, it's just a state of mind for I think non-Christians equate God with consciousness. Yes, it seems quite true actually. However, only time will tell. We will have to find it out ourselves- hopefully down the road- in 20 years time (that is if we live that long- because God calls people home at odd 'hours'), we will see God's grace and mercy before we say bye bye to this cold cruel world. But how blessed are those who never had any doubts about Him! Thank God for a memorable and blessed day. And may all you guys who are reading this be blessed too!!! For the children of Christ are never forgotten. We will hear His answer to our prayers and burdens, only if we choose to listen to His still soft voice. For the children of God hear Him in silence... Emmanuel- God is (and always will be) with us. Amen.

Inclined: Desire and Passion

2008-04-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

Currently playing: Petite Suite (duet) by Claude Debussy

So I admit that to some extent I have been trying to write posts regarding the political scene in Malaysia (I did that with my deleted post on our former minister you know who). It was a futile attempt to get connected with my inner critic-self and I have decided to really get into what really drives me (though I will continue to input some posts with local political news that enrages me; like the BN wives who transferred the 9.9 million ringgit, ketuanan melayu (malay supremacy) issue, and the keris-waving incident...yadah-yadah). I want to share incidents and issues that really shows what really makes me 'tick' -like good books/articles or classical music, community work and eccetra. So for starters:

Currently reading: Understanding the Modern World Through Christian Eyes-April 2008 (Kairos Publications)

This is a magazine that I would encourage all Christians and non-Christians alike to read. I read every copy you know. It is written by Christians who are theologically inquisitive as well as those who are highly experienced in their work fields such as politics, law, and education. You can purchase them in churches on Sundays. You could also get them at Salvation bookstores, Evangel bookstores or Canaanland sdn. bhd. In this month's publication - "Is God Real?", the articles issued are:

1.Religion- a source of conflict?
2.God is not an illusion: A response to the book The God Delusion
by Richard Dawkins
3. Is God real?
4. No one religion can monopolise the copyright of Allah
5.Are signs and wonders for today?
6. His dark materials: Philip Pullman's nefarious trilogy*
7. Times and seasons: Acts 1:7-8 and some moments in Asian church history
8. Interview with Pastor Jerry Dusing
9.Commentary: Is God real? Reflections on the book of Job
10. Good readings (book review)
11. Stories From Borneo by Sylvia Webb: God is there, even on jungle patrol

* I would like to talk a bit on Philip Pullman. He is the author of the book cum movie The Golden Compass, The Amber Spyglass, and His Dark Materials. If you have are good at reading 'between the lines', you would find his writings to be very atheistic. For example, the Magisterium represents the Catholic church which is the erm...bad guy who seeks out to destroy dust. If you have read the book or watch the movie, you would know about the Rusakov particles (dust)- those golden shiny things, which, by correct interpretation, confers consciousness,wisdom and knowledge. This is highly untrue about the Christian faith because in Christianity,we are to see the world or pursue knowledge with reference to God. Christians are not in denial or ignorant. And no, I am not a picky bookie who only likes Christian books and thinks other books should be burnt.... (omg, God forbid). Philip Pullman is one good author/ story-teller.

The next time I will do a short summary and on what I think on the book the Golden Compass. If you have watch the movie and think you know the good bits, you are to be in dismay. Lots of minute details have been left out. I will also do some thoughts on the articles in this magazine. So grab a copy and equip yourself with some fundamental Christianity. Until then, Soli Deo Gloria.

Christ@World: Looking out, looking up

2008-04-24T22:32:00.001+08:00

Kazakhstan: There is growing intolerence of Protestant Christians, some Muslim groups and other religious bodies. President Nazarbayev has spoken against missionary activities and is considering tightening existing religion laws to curb what he regards as "religious extremism". There will be more persecution of religious bodies that are not approved by the government, including many Protestant churches.

Sri Lanka: Ethnic and religious tensions have grown again in Sri Lanka over the past two years as hostilities between Tamil separatists and the government escalated. The Church bridges the Tamil-Sinhalese divide and therefore is targeted by extremist militants from both sides. The war, which officially resumed in mid-January 2008, gives Buddhist nationalists a perfect opportunity to attack the church under the cover of the prevailing chaos, and even blame the Tamil separatist. Christians have been the targets of several appalling violent attacks in recent weeks. One happened in Ampara on Feb 17 ( Pstr Neil Edirinsinghe, 37, his wife is critically wounded).

Pray: 1. Continued religious freedom and growth of the churches.
2.Peace in the turmoil nations

Some thought: Despite the many subtle unrests back here (and the shocking general elections where opposition secures 5 states, coz i think the outcome of it will be an 'unrest'), it isn't really that bad. We still have enough food (though prices are soaring), a roof over our heads (though the recent landslide at the Wangsa Heights condominiums in Kuala Lumpur), and a decent education (though STPM-Malaysia's Higher School Certificate is one of the toughest pre-u exams in the world and IS still relatively unheard by higher education instituitions overseas; Dear Government: Hello? no wonder Malaysia's universities are falling off the QS-THES charts!), we still should thank God for His loving kindness in helping us flourish in an environment that expects us to grow with our faith. For some experience God through poverty and sickness....and if we experience the Triune through wealth and health, we should count our blessings twice.

Return Power To Judges

2008-04-24T21:46:00.000+08:00

Former Lord president tun Salleh has called for a return to judicial authority to the courts. He noted that in 1988, Article 121 of the Federal Constitution had been amended so that this power, so originally vested in the high courts, is now restricted to "such jurisdiction and powers as may be conferred by or under federal law". He added that ouster clauses in legislation such as the Printing Presses and Publications Act and the Police Act provide that "any decision of the minister shall be final and cannot be questioned by the court". Tun Salleh's recommendation is of great significance as it is critical as it is critical to the check and balance mechanism between the executive and judicial powers and asked that the appointment and promotion of judges be made more transparent. It cannot be denied that the reputation of our judges is at its lowest point. Chief Justice Datuk Hamid Mohammad has pleaded passionately with his colleagues to "resurrect the honour of the judiciary".

Prayer: 1. Pray for courageous judges to stand up for the oath they pledged when they took office.
2. -Renewed and transformed mindset within the judicial community
3. NGO's and social activist groups, will continue to press the Government to make the necessary changes to restore the integrity of the judiciary.
(Taken from NECF)